Well thanks alot for all the replies! I realized that all these worries and fears were a result of my self doubts taking the better of me. It was not under-confidence but the constant state of self accusation(mainly related to my studies related issues) that caused this. I come over it after I realized that I had given my problems a lot more power over my life than I did.
It wasn't good but I've become stronger! For the record I realized that I'm straight as the fact that I WANTED and DESIRED to BE STRAIGHT and not that I should act like one for society itself proved to be the light in the darkness. I'm moving on in life now. all those who read my post and posted thnx...
just remember
THOUGH IN THE DARKNESS THE WAY OUT MAY NOT BE VISIBLE BECAUSE ITS DARK, YET THE ONE WHO WANTS TO SEE THE LIGHT SHALL FIND IT EVEN IF HE HAS TO CRAWL.
good luck.