Are you in therapy? Therapy should help with learning how to deal with those feelings productively and how to cope in ways that are effective for you.
In the mean time, look at the thread (thumbtacked above the others in this forum) on distractions. There are some good coping methods in there. Maybe you will find something that helps you, whether or not you're wanting to hurt yourself at the moment.
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“We should always pray for help, but we should always listen for inspiration and impression to proceed in ways different from those we may have thought of.”
– John H. Groberg
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