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Balance : mental steadiness or emotional stability; habit of calm behavior, judgment,
I have none of this...I am feeling like the weather...sun one day rain the next...slightly breeze...full gail winds of a hurican...
I do not want to be on the fench waiting to see which way I will fall each day
I want so much to have mental steadiness or emotional stability
I try so hard to ignore the fact that this is a reality in my life...some days I fly about like a butterfly who was caught off gaurd and did not get a chance to hide when the high winds come and Im being tossed about in every direction praying I will not be destroyed, and others days I am like a buffalo plowing through it full ahead with no worrie that it is bellowing at me at a hundred miles an hour...
where is my stebility? I long to know it as a friend...
I want to blame illness of mind on this...but it is an illness of heart and soul I am fearing...
God help me in my weakness, my lack of forsight to get out of the way of the storm when I am feeling like a butterfly... help me to be strong like the buffalo that can plow through it with out worrie of its winds...
my mind is shattered today but I am here
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 If you have come here for support, you might as well leave cause I have none to give. Im simply broken and can not be fixed.
Be careful of your thoughts, for your thoughts become your words...be careful of your words, for your words become your actions...be careful of your actions, for your actions become your habits...be careful of your habits, for your habits become your character...be careful of your character, for your character becomes your destiny.
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