Hi everyone, well last Friday I received a diagnosis - I have Bipolar II, hypomania with mixed states. I have been put on Depokate 250mg 3 times daily and cut down on the Effexor to 37.5mg once a day. Already feeling a little better but very very tired.

I had a whole week of hypomania and some psychosis too, I was really wild and started drinking. I have another appointment this Friday with the psychiatrist to review the meds, but so far feeling pretty balanced, up and down a bit and today I could feel the "crashing" depression but it seemed cos I am on the meds my mind was kind of stopping getting the blackness, if you know what I mean. Wanted to cry and found it hard to do.

Anyway, husband has been brilliant, my 12 yr old daughter is asking lots of questions too. I am keeping my extended family out of the way, they are totally dysfunctional.

Anyway I am relieved that I finally have the correct diagnosis and can start to rebuild my life from here, I know it isnt going to be easy - I have a lot of childhood demons to get through as well.