I've felt like that before, too. I felt upset, ashamed, tired, unwanted, and just plain beaten and for no reason at all. It's frustrating to think that you're just strange and dramatic for no reason. My parents used to yell at me for doing it too. They didn't understand what was happening so they tried to make it stop with hurtful words and raised voices, to this day they still think they were successful, but I still do it and it sucks to know that not even your parents will be there to help you through what ever pain it is. I would say it will get better but I can't because it still hasn't for me.