Dear T,

I am still really embarrassed by what I emailed you last night, but your response this morning was so sweet and thoughtful. You knew I'd be freaking out all week if I heard nothing from you. Thanks for going above and beyond once again, I appreciate it more than you know.

That said, I'm still feeling really weird about things. Every natural instinct inside of me tells me not to trust anyone anymore, not to tell anyone anything. So why did I tell you that? You've given me no reason not to trust you, and I think I do, but still it feels wrong in some ways. You say you don't judge me, but are you speaking strictly as a therapist, or as a person as well? If I was not your client, would you still not judge me for this? I know you have said you're not going anywhere and won't abandon me like everyone else, but how do I know that? I'm so afraid of something happening that would prevent me from seeing you again. That would be the very last straw for me, the last time I would ever trust anyone ever again... so crap, this better be real.