Wow. Can't even begin to imagine how it must have been like for you growing up. Reading stories like this often leaves me so dumbfounded. Maybe because I had such great parent who have nothing to do with my issues. I get emotional (is happening quite often now a days!) and then I wish I could say or do something that would make it all better instantly. I hope someone will give you the answers you need. I can only support. I'm sorry you had such a hectic childhood. Hope you are seeing a T.
Go well. Like your profile name!
(((Hug)))