i was emotionally abused through neglect, shame, and an absence of love. and it broke me as a person. i feel like i am still about as strong as an infant. i can't work, and right now i can't even talk to pepople or really leave the house.

i'm scared that i'll never be able to get well. the damage was done from so young and for so long and i've had so much stress on my weak ego that i have shut down completely. i have repressed my emotions so completely because that is what my parents forced me to do.

also this neglect has effected me sexually for sure in that i can not be intimate with anyone. i want to i long for it i long for love but in reality i can't make the connection. i think my true self is buried too deep within myself.

i don't feel like a good person. i don't really feel like a person at all. i'm so cold and empty. i wish i could feel real anger at my parents. they hurt me so much.

i'm just puking this out to see if anyone can relate to it or respond to it.
i wonder if anyone has ever recovered from being this far gone. i am pretty sure my soul has been annihilated.

i need help so badly and i want to change so much but i don't know how.