((((((((((((Granite)))))))))))

She wont think you are disgusting or not want to work with you. I think is is awesome that you were able to share all this with her. That is a major step and you should be proud of yourself, and I am sure your T is proud of you too for you being able to share. I am so proud of you for being able to share so much today. Being scared is okay. Going back is what is important.