My T has never asked me granite, but I told her I did because I was so afraid I was going to hurt myself really badly.
What was hard was at the next appointment I had with T I had a long sleeved blouse on- the sleeves were flared and covered up my arm and what I had done. The sleeves were sheer brown and multi colored but you couldn't see the cuts through the material- I needed something long sleeved and cool because this was the middle of summer and it was so hot. Anyway..... After session was over I went to give her a hug and lifted my arm to put it around her, the sleeved slipped down enough for her to see the cuts. She gently took my arm held it out and said- "I saw what you did". I was horrified! I pulled my arm away from her and instantly buried my face in my hands and fell back into the chair. I sat there speechless and so embarrassed and ashamed. She was very sweet about it- and has never said another word about it since.
But I remember that day like it was yesterday. It's really kinda helped me not to self harm so much. I can't say I have stopped, but I sure don't do it so much!
It's ok for T to know Granite. I know it's scarey to talk about, but, that may be all the conversation you have about it unless you bring it up to her. My T told me she wasn't so concerned about the SI because she knew what that was about- not that she didn't care that I was doing it, just that she understood why I did it.
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