suzzie, I hope what Kaliope and Open Eyes have said will connect with you and make sense at some level. What happened to you in the past happened because of bad things others brought into your life, not because of any badness in you.

As I've come to know you more over the past months, I've gotten to like you and then to care about you--& if you can't handle that yet, you can tell me so. No one wants you to be uncomfortable.

But as Kaliope and Open Eyes have said, you are a good person. And over time, being lovable (and being loved) is something you'll need to work on getting used to.

So I just want you to know that I'm quite content to wait until you can be comfortable with others caring.

Roadie