I think you're right. I'm trying to do other things besides TV (though I just got a new TV as a birthday present ), and it's working out okay. I've gone to a concert, and a few movies with friends, and I've been out a lot more. I've also started reading again.

I've noticed I feel better, less 'sick', but I'm still not "good". I'm not happy, and I feel empty or overwhelmed a lot. That's likely just depression though (yay BP!).

I'm going to try and keep this up, but I don't know how long I can. I want to just retreat again into a place that I don't have to think and act I can just imagine and exist. Maybe I can get that from books, and it'll be a bit healthier. Probably not... at least not healthier.

Thank you guys for the advice. I could also try and knit and watch TV? *sigh* right now I'm going to go to bed. lol.