Dear T

I'm so anxious for our appt tomm. I feel like this is it either goes great and we repair the rupture or not and I'm back on google looking for a new T.

I have a feeling it's gonna be the latter cause u seem to think that I was attacking u. I just wanted support T. Cant u see I just need some support and nuturing till I'm string enough again?? Why do I have to be my own T??

How can I love and hate you at the same time? It's a sick sick addiction...