Dear T,

I'm going to do my best to hold back anger and sadness tomorrow. I know that these emotions can be good for my process but I have too much I need to accomplish with you tomorrow. I think I'll feel better for the week we have between appointments if I get as many blanks filled as possible instead of trying to let the couch swallow me. Seriously, I don't have time to "feel" tomorrow -- and it pisses me off because that's when I get the most connection.