Thanks for your advice. Since I'm in online therapy with f2f sessions occasionally, I only see her 5 or 6 times in a year. The e-mail is rather continuous though. I still think I'll try your idea. I like my T. I've just been struggling with how she works with me because it's pretty uncomfortable, and even though I asked her for therapy and I'm there voluntarily, somewhere I seem to have picked up an attitude where I see it as a fight and I struggle against her even though I want her to win. I'm trying not to see it that way anymore, because that just doesn't help.

We've been participating in research about online therapy, so every week I have to fill out a form that asks about my attitudes and feelings. And we've been through a really rough patch the last few weeks, where I wasn't feeling very friendly to her, and was afraid she would terminate me. I was suprised to find that even through that, I still had confidence in her skills. She pretty much always turns out to be right, even if I question it at first.