Thanx, that makes me feel better. Just knowing others had the same experience. Sometimes I do feel quite alone in all the crap. I must honestly say that coming to this group especially has already been very helpful. My first stop on PC was a other forum where I realy got confused and severly triggerd. I feel safe here. I do hope things can just get calmer. My insides feel like it is vibrating and my anger is threatening to take over. Seeing a 1 next to my post soothes me instantly. Thank you.