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Originally Posted by Plutonian
Today marks a week since I've been intoxicated  My roommate mentioned yesterday that I'm starting to be myself again. I had dreams last night with heroin laced imagery, making this morning a little uneasy :\
A couple days ago, I told one of my good friends that I was sick last week from drug use (I didn't tell her what I was using and she didn't ask) and that I'm detoxing, trying to sober up for good. She responded less than ideally. Brought up that this weekend a friend we haven't seen in years will be in town and he wants to smoke with us  I told her I don't want to, even though I'm very tempted. She kept up with the pressure, "oh come on! He's not in town often and who knows when we'll see him again? Just this one weekend!"
I've been through the whole, "one time, this is just a one time thing, I won't do it again after this," situation before. Many times. It never works out in my favor. I just go back to regular use after a while. What more can I tell her to get her to stop pushing it? She was supportive of my past decisions to sober up, but she's pushing it now because an old friend will be in town. |
She doesn't get it, does she? Nope, she's just
not hearing you--& there's nothing either of you can do about it.
I'm so, so sorry, Plutonian.
It may be early in your recovery to bring out the Serenity Prayer, but I use it for times like this. I ask for:
serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can, and
wisdom to know the difference.
If there's a way to get your friend to hear you, let's pray you find the courage to discuss calmly with her
in a context she'll understand why you need to stay clean. If she's not going to be able to grasp that, let's pray you'll be able to give her a big hug and a smile. Tell her you wish them a great visit, but that right now you have to take care of yourself & that means staying sober. Ask her to accept that in the name of your friendship, even if she doesn't understand it.
Okay, that's my way. Anything there that could help you?
Roadie
