I defiantly understand. The world's a **** and life's a *****. No one will ever completely understand, but that's just how it is. Somehow I always attract the preppiest of people then the get all mad when I rain on their parade yet they still come back for more. I have no clue why. I'm just like that and it ticks me off when they try to change me.Oh well' I learned to live with it and I hope you will too. :\