Well, just keep following along in therapy and see what happens.

I get a strange flashback and I know I was very young but all I have so far are body memories and I have not seen anything else.

I asked my therapist about it and he told me that our brains protect certain memories if they are upsetting and often it only lets out a little bit sometimes. The memories are there, but the brain just wont let out something that may be too hard on us. But that doesn't mean something really did happen to you and I don't want you to think that. It is up to you and your therapist to try to work through this, I know you want to know, but you have to be patient.

My therapist is thinking about doing the EMDR with me as well. Some people are really helped by it. Give it time.

Why don't you ask your therapist if he/she can have a talk with your husband so you get some space and don't feel so presured or guilty because your struggling to feel comfortable with being intimate?

Just a thought.

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