But... I don't want to outgrow my old friends from my first post-secondary. I didn't meat them online, I met them on campus. I really love them! We had such a great time together all term and stuff. Now I just struggle... I don't know. Ahhhh.... making friends in the post-sec I am at now is kinda hard cause it feels like everyone is competing against each other to me and I don't do well under that kind of pressure. I guess I should learn how though. Aaaaaah....

We had a career day thing lately and professionals from our field we're studying started talking about us as soon future grads and workers. I can't see myself in the future. I can see myself sleeping. Or dead.

Do you think my friends stop talking to me because I've been depressed for so long?