It's coming back. The urges are becoming so unbearable. I've found myself pulling several times today and the past few months it's gradually been building. I've somewhat managed to control myself throughout but not pulling makes me irritable and on edge and unsatisfied. I honestly thought I was cured for a while. I had been trich free for probably two years. All during my childhood my trich was really quite bad, leaving me with bald spots on the top of my head, around my bangs, and around my neck area. I don't know when I learned to control myself, but I somehow slowly began to stop. I think cutting my hair really short had something to do with it, as well as falling into an abusive situation where my abuser would yank me around by my hair creating an extremely painful reminder. But since then my hair has grown quite long and soft and now I just want to pull and yank and pull but my vanity I think is what is keeping me from having a full out hair fit.

I need help on how to control myself, I don't know what to do, it's so thought consuming