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Originally Posted by Open Eyes
You know who your best friend is right now? YOU. And do you know why? Because YOU have been taking time out for YOU and you are also educating YOU and you are learning how to be responsible for YOU. And the roomate? She is dependant on everyone else, her father and her friends for HER well being, very dangerous road. Your roomate is in for a big awakening down the road. And YOU are actually learning HOW to SURVIVE all by yourself and that is very healthy.
(((((Hugs)))))
Open Eyes
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Thanks for taking the time to talk to me and stuff. ^_^
I'm not sure if I'm my own best friend. I kinda just... I don't know. I really hate myself not being "happy" with what I have, I guess. Like the career day, professional panel board talk that happened last day. They were talking about the future and everyone around me looks so confident.
Whenever people ask me the question, where do you see yourself 10 years from now? I kinda just freeze up and think of suicide. Eek... Then I blurb out this stupid, not really literate answer and I think I make a really bad impression.
It's really stressful for me because I'm just so demotivated from school... I don't think I'm really going anywhere with my two jobs (in terms of advancement).
- When I go to school, I feel demotivated about my career choice. I feel like I'm not good enough.
- When I go to work. Once is an entry level job and the other is a job related in the field I want to go in but I don't think I'm "going" anywhere.
- When I go home, I just see my roommate laughing and playing with my friends online. I start to feel envious.
Wherever I go, I just feel so... demotivated. You know? Oh wellz. It's a journey, like you say. But sometimes, I have a hard time convincing myself that life's worth living. It's.... kinda .... demotivating.