I'm supposed to be going to partial twice a week. I rarely ever go. I hate it because it's not beneficial at all.

Anymore I forget all about my T appointments, I'm not remembering what day it is or anything. I even forget to call in to set up transportation for my appointments, so it never really gets done.

I missed my pdoc appointment last...week??? I dunno when it was. Anyways, I was lucky enough that I still had an extra refill on my meds. I don't even remember to take them all the time. No wonder I still had an extra refill for another 2 week supply of meds.

I've tried everything to try to remember my appointments. I post my appointment cards on the fridge, have calendars up with all my appointments on them, make lists of what I need to do...I just bypass, put off, or completely forget about these things. I even look at them almost daily and it still doesn't do anything for me.

Like I'll say oh it's morning...I can call for transportation or whatever in the afternoon. I'll get online and the next time I look at the clock it's 5 pm! Too late to call! I lose track of time so easily. This isn't the first time this has happened. It has been worse before like this.

Anyways, back to the original topic. Partial.

For some reason I can't bring myself to go at all. If I don't feel like doing something, I don't do it. And I know that it isn't helping me at all...I mean we learn more about the counselors lives than we work on our issues. It's really bad there. I don't like the people there, I don't get supported there at all, and I'd rather go where I could get that. I dunno.

Maybe I'll go next Tuesday or sometime and tell them that I'm quitting because it's doing me no good at all. It's just a place to socialize and I don't like socializing with those people to begin with.