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Originally Posted by Sannah
Did you discuss in therapy the bathroom stuff and the walking around naked stuff and did you let out your feelings in session while you talked about it?
Have you also discussed in session how you feel when you are with your husband?
Have you discussed with your therapist how you are feeling while in session?
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Hi Sannah,
I have brought up the bathrrom and walking around stuff. I try to let out my feelings....i can reiterate what happened but when it comes to my feelings of I somewhat disassociate like check out and its hard to get my brain to slow down. I also have a hard time remembering the feelings from then....i have "stuffed" alot of them i think.
i have written out in a letter some of the things that happen and that i think of when with the hubby and gave it to T. we have talked about it vaguely....its really hard to talk about. i get really uncomfortable and feel like my blood is on fire racing through my veins. T has said there is alot of red flags pointing to something happening but we dont know for sure. T has "not" called what i have described as abusive....has said bad boundaries for sure.
I think my biggest hang up is....if all thats there is what i know....is it enough to cause such severe effects in how i respond to physical intimacy of a romantic nature. at the same time....i play tug of war with myself.....how can i think my dad would do something more vs. i cant 100% say i dont think he didnt. argh!