Trippen, if you were to really think about GOOD verses EVIL. When EVIL happens so many people think that GOD/GOOD was not there or allowed it to happen to them.

But you have to consider EVIL/ Abusers and the goal of evil is to keep us believing that God has failed us so that we cannot commit ourselves to the GOOD we do deserve.

Some faiths talk about God being everywhere and he is also in us. Well if that is really true and there is EVIL/SATAN as well, that would be the one place he would block our ability to accept the GOD/GOOD in us.

Yes, it can become an internal battle just like what you are discribing within yourself, but think about it and what are you allowing to happen? Well, if there is truely EVIL/Satan, that is eactly what he wants to happen. He would want us to punish that GOD/GOOD in us because if it is true and he wants our souls, he will have a much better chance of getting what he wants.

The Good/God in you sat up to stop the EVIL. Maybe the GOD/Good in you blocks memories because it at least give GOOD/GOD a chance. But the EVIL/DEVIL is there also trying to lift the lock on EVIL to gain power again over the GOOD/GOD within.

While it is work, you CAN work on the GOD/GOOD coming out in you, yes it is there and you CAN make it stronger. You CAN make a choice to not allow the DEVIL/EVIL to threaten or control that part of you. However, remember he would be cunning and do whatever he could to prevent you from the GOD/GOOD in you from growing strong.

Just some thoughts.

Open Eyes