I appreciate all the care and concern.
Maybe I wrote down how I was feeling incorrectly...
I am trying to figure things out for me. So, I was just shutting PM's off because people I don't know were pm'ing me and asking me to tell about myself which scared me.
And, I am going through so much pain with my recovery that I felt I needed to take a step back and really look inside myself.
I guess I didn't relay that well with my beginning post.
I know there is great care here for me. And I know I can reach out to many of you and you are there.
I have a hard time expressing myself @ times and this is a prime example with the beginning of this post.

I am just trying to get my balance.
I will be back. I will turn on my PM's soon.
I just wanted some of you to know I am not available currently.

Again, thanks for the love and support. I know it is here!