2or3things, this is mind-blowing - I've had these kinds of feelings, but I had NO IDEA there was a whole subculture of people enacting this stuff! I thought it was just in the theater of my mind!

I wish I knew where they were in MY city!

btw, I don't think you need to feel especially weird or bad about wanting to do age play. So much of what moves us, turns us on, obsesses us, etc. etc., was established WAY early on, long before we were conscious of what was happening.

A strange garden of colorful and bizarre survival strategies can erupt spontaneously out of childhood chaos and damage. When you grow up essentially without parents (which is how I think of it when love and support are absent, whether or not the parents were physically present), the psyche does strange things. The mind and emotions of a child are still in development. Distortions evolve as the child grapples with the necessity to fend off awareness of things it's unprepared to deal with (Mother doesn't love me, I'm alone). So much of what we fantasize about and long for, sexually and otherwise, has to do with these early damaging experiences.

So we re-enact them later on. We're rehearsing the messed up family romance over and over, trying to make it right through repetition. This is a pretty common type of response, actually to all kinds of early trauma I think.

Anyway, thanks for the interesting topic!