Its so easy to say I shouldn't be with him. But you have to understand, he's my best friend, he was my teammate, my confidant, he was the most amazing thing to come into my life for years and years and years...then he snapped. I have a hard time letting go of what he was, I believe he's still in there. He may not be. I have to come to terms with that...I married a package deal...my stepson comes with him. When he originally had his affair I didn't think I was just losing my husband, I was losing my son as well, who turns ten today, who I have been in his life since he was 1 1/2. Its not as easy as just, oh, he's abusive now leave him. Imagine your partner...imagine if tomorrow they woke up with a practically new personality. Would you be able to just say, 'see ya!'...or would you be confused and like 'i don't understand what's happening??' and want to see them get help? That's what it was like for me...one day things were normal...as in life as usual with my best friend, the next they weren't. Granted, its been TWO YEARS OF HELL now. Two years out of eight all together that have been horrible. Is he still there? In glimpses, yes...its not as easy as just moving on.