When I moved in middle school two "friends" came into my life. In high school, four more "friends" came into my life. These "friends" are all imaginary.

Senior year I had a manic episode which lead to my dx of bipolar disorder. I was in the hospital for two weeks and during that time my imaginary friends were gone. I stopped thinking about my crush as well during that time.

Right now I believe I am in a "mixed state". I'm still trying to figure out my disorder: what's manic, what's happy, what's depressed, what's normal sadness...and learning that I can experience both mania and depression at the same time really scares me. I started journaling how I felt yesterday and today and I can see that I am definitely manic and supercharged, but I also feel very emotional and at times I shed a few tears, followed by laughter.

i noticed that during this time I haven't had any interaction with my imaginary friends. At night I tried forcing them to be with me to help me go to sleep, but it was hard to try and make them feel as real to me as they do at other times.

Reading other's posts I don't see anyone else here who has imaginary friends, but I am learning that everyone experiences their disorder differently. Some are crippled by it, other's are frustrated, and some are doing so-so. I feel like right now I am doing so-so. I can still function, but I've been having heated arguments with my disorder about who's in charge of my life...ME!

Anyways, sorry...even if you can't really relate...Any ideas why my imaginary friends aren't as prevalent as to when I become manic?