I am so greatful to have a year of sobriety under my belt so I have the tools to get through this as well. I had the thought of drinking for about 5 minutes after I found out, and then my program kicked in and I remembered that that would not solve anything. I finally was able to get to my 2 homegroups last night and bring this to the group and it made me feel so much better. I'm living proof that we can walk through anything without a drink, and with a solid foundation, even the obsession will be kept under lock and key when we experience hardship. I want my experience to be of help to others...so if you think you need to drink, please remember that you don't have to, no matter what!