Sorry to hear you'r enot in a good place right now... Hope you'll get better soon and make it through the week-end safe.

I'm a little bit where you are now, but in a different way. I'm trying to sit with the feelings... Easier said than done! And it's even worse when you don't even know what it really means. But I'm trying and tonight, I feel like I'm going to make it, not now but someday, I will...

So I'm not 100% sure but I guess it means something similar... There's not much you can change about the past and what have been done so the energy spent thinking about what you could have done better or beating yourself up as you say could be use in a more constructive way... But still easier said than done! I don't think it can be done in a short period of time; one needs time and some healing and some introspection to be able to finally just accept a situation or a feeling.

Anyway, week end goes fast so you can meet your t again and maybe begin to make sense of this!

take care
faith