...the first thing I think when I read the title here is...what the hell comes first for me?

is it the mood swing...or the up and downs?...and wtf makes any of it normal?

just now making lunch and my pancake disintegrated and re-decorated some of my kitchen when I flipped it over, thats maybe a 'normal' up and down?...but I know I'm in some kinda permanent mood swing and I would probably have a nice neat pancake if I weren't so damn in a hurry and freakin' out all the time!

I don't know what a narmal up and down is for very long because I immediately go and 'abnormal the crap out of it.

but it's ok