oh, I checked my texts. I didn't tell ex-T not to contact me, but I told her I realized how contact with her was not helpful for me, and that I would try not to contact her in the future. I blocked her, I really doubt she would reply anyway but I don't want to feel that jolt of seeing her number in my inbox any more.

thank you for helping me see that it's ok to avoid painful things while I'm healing. I can be so hard on myself sometimes.

PS I want to reply to each of you but I am just totally worn out right now. I thank you each for your thoughts and your words, and I wish I could reply to you all but I need to be done with this for tonight. I'm going to get into bed and think about how amazingly wonderful my life is compared to how it was 3 years ago tonight. It feels like a million years ago, really.