That's what I'm still trying to figure out, three weeks into my recovery from a months-long mixed episode. It sounds strange even to me, but I really don't trust my own impressions anymore, because I thought I was OK when I was actually losing my mind. I feel like happiness is just around the corner, but now I'm suspicious of it---am I becoming happy/normal, or is this another hypomanic phase kicking in? It scares me.....it's happening relatively quickly so I can't help thinking I'm just on one of my upswings.

On the other hand, my bipolar d/o has never met Lamictal before, and the stuff is kicking its @$$. I guess the rest remains to be seen. In the meantime, I'm just going to enjoy the good days and thank God I'm out of the agitated-depression stage.