Hi Lexicon,

Have you talked with your therapists and doctors at all about why you are feeling this way - not wanting to go to your appointments? It sounds like it is not just one place, but across the board. Even though your experience with partial sounds like the most difficult one, it also sounds like you don't want to keep your other appointments either right now.

Is it possible to reschedule your pdoc appointment and try to talk about some of these issues, if that is a person with whom you can talk? If not, is there a counselor at partial with whom you can talk before you quit the program altogether? Or, is there another partial program to which you can be transferred, if this one isn't meeting your needs?

My situation is totally different, but I know for me, sometimes when I wanted to skip appointments with my counselor, I was really having trouble in our working relationship, and I was really upset with him. I needed to bring up some problems we were having, and get them worked out. I also needed to talk about some frustrated feelings I was having. I don't know if this could be an experience other folks have when they feel like skipping appointments, but at least for me, once I bought up the problems we were having in therapy and we worked on them, it really helped and I found myself wanting to keep my appointments again. We were able to work things out.

Anyway, I'm thinking of you, and I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. Please take good care of you.

Take care,
ErinBear