Dreamy01, i understand where your first T was coming from. That your parents did the best they could. I think ALL parents do the best they can. When my mom repeatedly tried to kill us and she abused us in every way she WAS doing the best she could. She is schizophrenic and very ill. No parent starts out saying, " i' m going to make little Johnny' s life a living hell ! Yep , that's my patental goal. " i think parents who abuse are just very damaged and they dont have any resources or knowledge or tools or skills for parenting either. They arent even equipped for life skills much less parenting. I'm not saying this is an excuse for their behavior, just maybe an explanation. Im very confused how feel about my mom. I love her because she is my mom. I remember moments she was
Kind. I feel like that was her true self shining through she isnt ever like that anymore. I hate her too. She can be a monster.i'm very afraid of her.

Oh , i guess i'm very lucky i have a sister and brother. None of us are twins. My sister and i look a little alike though. I think she's prettier. I love them both more than i can describe.