My HW for next session is to write a letter to one of my perps from childhood - telling him how I felt/feel about what happened.

Trouble is is that I just feel so numb ...I can imagine what one would feel and if it were someone else, but not me. I'm trying really hard to get in touch with the feelings, but so much is just not there. I see the scenes play out, and I can guess what an obvious feeling would be, but I don't know for certain that's what i felt.

anyone else struggle with this? i am writing the letter and just trying any way. maybe i'll get to the emotions eventually.

WTH