I'm gonna call my doc on Monday. For no other reason than I'm tired of crying all the time. I think my left eye will eventually close if i don't do something. The crying got worse after I lost my group of friends. When it gets around the time we used to hang out its really bad for me. There are really only about 3 or 4 bad apples in the group. Problem is if i stayed i would be listen to the others complain about the bad ones. Don't really want to hear it. They prefer to suffer in silence. I think if there is a problem with friends you should talk about it. I did that and was told to go away. I guess it just hurts knowing I made a stupid mistake in thinking i had a friend. I feel so foolish.

The most pitiful part is spending time with these people was the only thing i had left to look forward to. It was the only fun thing i had left. It wasn't all bad. When I had to leave the group I had nothing left at all.