I'm so sorry you're going through all this. If it's any consolation, I feel that way a lot of the time too. It sounds like you've been hanging out with some real assholes. I won't even dare suggest that you just get some more friends --- I know how much it pisses me off when people say that to me. I know how deeply the rejection hurts. I have a huge rejection complex myself.

All of that to say, I promise, you are not alone. We might not know each other, but I really do understand where you're coming from and if there's anything you ever wanna talk about or anything, feel free to PM me.