This I can certainly understand from my history - why you dismiss or suspect it. My mother only paid attention to me to trick me into something else and I fell for it every time. I am still Charlie Brown falling for the football. Part of the problem is that I know these good things about me, but THEY never acknowledged them, so I still do not believe anyone else will ever really see the goodness in me. It's THERE, but no one has the ABILITY or capacity or willingness to recognize it. T's have said, oh you think you're bad or wrong, because mum didn't recognize you; she has to recognize your goodness for YOU to recognize your goodness. No, it's more like this. Geez, shrinks and their effin book knowledge!