So, last time I saw my psychiatrist, he said something that upset me a great deal. He questioned whether becoming a doctor is the right career choice for me. Basically, he said that my obsessive attention to detail (my mania/OCD combo) would be great in a career such as research, but he's not sure if I'm well-suited to becoming a doctor. He was saying that in medicine, you sometimes have only 5 minutes to spend with each patient, and you have to keep moving on, and he can't see me being able to do that.
He is also very much pushing me to take next year off to do a master's, because he doesn't think I can handle doing clinical rotations next year. Now I'm wondering if he just doesn't think I'm well-suited to medicine, period, and he's hoping I'll drop out of med school!
Well, I feel very upset about this. I think I'm great at what I do, and I think what I do is great for me. Helping people is how I stay sane. And I think I'll be a fantastic doctor one day.
How could he question that? I feel devastated that he thinks I won't be a good doctor.
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age: 23
dx: bipolar I, ADHD-C, tourette's syndrome, OCD, trichotillomania, GAD, Social Phobia, BPD, RLS
current meds: depakote (divalproex sodium) 1000mg, abilify (aripiprazole) 4mg, cymbalta (duloxetine) 60mg, dexedrine (dexamphetamine) 35mg, ativan (lorazepam) 1mg prn, iron supplements
past meds: ritalin, adderall, risperdal, geodon, paxil, celexa, zoloft
other: individual talk therapy, CBT, group therapy, couple's therapy, hypnosis
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