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Originally Posted by pepcat
3. Plastic people and fake friends. I'm not sure I've ever had a real friend.
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I can relate to this so much. I came to a similar conclusion many years ago. The fact is many people are false, they are fake, they are phonies; they are shallow, disingenuous, actors, and many of them selfish, egotistical, corrupt and rotten to the core, and that's why I'm a chronic loner, a social recluse, and a misanthrope.
I see it and experience it every day: the contrived, fake, phony people, and their little control dramas. I'm not sure if I've ever had a real friend either, in fact I'm pretty certain I have not. People are fickle, their transient friendship is usually born out of selfish motives, and there is not one person in this life that I would trust with my life, as even the most seemingly genuine of people have turned out to be fraudsters.
There
are genuine people out there, but by Christ they are hard to find.
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Originally Posted by pepcat
4. I've always been the dog people kick when they have a bad day. No one has ever loved me or cared about me. When i die no one will care or miss me. Once upon a time I thought i was smart and had value. Truth is I'm worthless and stupid. People have been trying to tell me the truth for years. I was just to dumb to understand. I used to sing "I am woman, hear me roar". Now its I am woman = I am nothing.
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You have low self-esteem, and that is a major symptom of depression. People may or may not care about you, but when you are in the depressed state you feel worthless, and that's a by-product of depression.
I felt like nothing for many years, it was only when my depression began to lift and I experienced the consequent rise in self esteem that those feelings of being inferior and worthless began to dissipate.
Maybe you really are alone and no-one really does care about you. If so, fear not, you are not alone.