That hardly sounds like "don't care". College was an easier route for me into "Life" (I waited until my junior year of college, age 20, before I changed from fidgety to panicky world ending :-) where you have to go eventually and going from high school presents more problems and less possibilities than from college.

Decide you want to feel something other than terror or apathy and work on that the next 5 years? Pick a subject you do like; writing, art, music, drama, obscure bugs :-) and start toward a major in that?