I'm really not generally extroverted. I was able to have conversations with both of them when we first met, but I wasn't able to talk about anything but the most superficial reasons for seeking therapy. I only saw my first T for 3 months and never did get to a point where I felt I could tell him literally anything. I knew from early on that he was going to be moving, so I didn't feel I could get as close to him.

With my current T, I do feel there's almost nothing I couldn't talk to him about. I've only seen him since January, but I know he's with me for the long haul, so I've been able to let myself deepen the connection with him. There are still a lot of things I haven't told him, but I think I'll be able to.

I think there was a big part of me that figured if I wasn't as forthcoming as possible with my current T early on, I might find myself in a situation where the T didn't feel able to deal with my issues and I'd end up getting referred. I was terrified of getting close to another T and then having to start over with someone else a third time, so I kind of forced myself to disclose a bit faster than I might otherwise have done.