Squiggle, I have a similar problem going on and I know why. I just can't fix it. I have some sort of transference thing going on where I react to my T emotionally as if he was my dad. I just want to put my arms around him and curl up in his lap. I know how safe and protected I would feel because I've dreamed about it. And it ain't gonna happen - not ever. And I can't talk about it. So I don't want to get anywhere near him, because I'm so aware of his physicality. It's like there's a magnetic force and if I'm not careful, whoosh --- some force will throw me across the room and there I'll be stuck to his chest! OMG, it's awful and I'm so embarrassed. Even taking the appt card from him at the end of the session is too close for comfort. I'm not at all worried about HIM doing anything, but what I might do. I wish I could talk about with him, but I can't. I just hope it goes away one of these days.