I am in a very difficult situation at the moment. I was in a long term relationship with my ex the mother of my child for over 10 years. Lets just say that things did not work out and I decided that I could not be in a relationship just for the sake of my Son anymore.

Having ended the relationship with great difficulty I then tried to move on and met somebody who I thought was wonderful and perfect for me. It was a very rocky relationship and I could never progress things further because my ex would not accept the fact that I truly wanted to move on and so she would make things unbearable between us because she could not accept this new women in my life. I was unable to spend time with her on weekends because I would have to look after my son and my ex would not let my new girlfriend be around him.

Anyway needless to say our relationship starting to get very difficult, I was with here for almost a year and I would constantly be breaking up with her one minute and getting back with her the next. This carried on like this for months. I started to become very confused about what I really wanted. I would find any excuse not to be with her. I would say that it was her and her personality and that she was selfish. The truth is she really treated me very well and far better that any other I have known. I have had a stroke of bad luck so far this year and I even lost my job. I broke up with her again but this would prove to be the last time. I have now found work quite quickly luckly however I have not seen my ex girlfriend for a month and it is now were I am feeling really lost. She has changed and no longer wants to be with me or even try again. I really do miss her now and cant stop thinking about her all the time. I am filled with so many emotions, one minute I blame myself then I blame her and I even blame for the mother of my child as she never made things become easy for us.

I just want to forget her as I know it would be better for me in the long term, but no matter how hard I try I keep coming back to a depression. It hurts to know that she could now be with somebody else and I feel as though my time spent with her was all a waste and lies. I dont want to go out and try and get a social life again as I feel really low at the moment.

No point trying to speak to her anymore she has made up her mind and I truly wish her all the best because she deserves it and I guess I pushed her away one time too many, its just a shame that I cant seem to move on like she has and I dont know what to do but I feel that if I dont do something soon I will start getting very ill over this situation.

Any help will be really appreciated.