yes, I know it's an old movie by now
I wanted to see it because T1 saw it and told me how much it made her think of me, the King's perseverance, his courage, his triumph/overcoming obstacles......but so much happened I never had the chance to until I happened to see it available at our Library the other day. So we watched it, my H and I, and felt so drawn into the King's struggle/victory....and I found myself remembering T telling me that and just thinking, I wish I could tell her I saw it and how it touched my heart....and that it still had the power to touch my heart to think she thought of me when she saw it, that she saw me as a persevering person, an overcomer.
But I can't tell her....and there is a sort of a resigned sorrow I feel about that, a sense of poignant loss, but yet a sense of gain too.....because she did help me see something I had not seen before - that I AM an overcomer - and even though I can't tell her that, it doesn't really matter, because that truth is still mine!
I am overcoming the loss of her and overcoming the painful twists and turns therapy took with her at the end....but in an irony, I am able to overcome that in part because of the strength/resilience she helped me see I had.....
No one really needs to respond to this.....a lot of my posts about T1 are just me working toward a fuller peace and insight and healing from my experience with her and it helps me to move forward, not forget her but forgive her and myself, to let go of the pain and hold on to the love....so thanks for bearing with me!