It is truly a mystery that's for sure! I have always said that the therapeutic relationship is the strangest relationship you can ever be in. This is why I want to get out before I get burned too bad! That is one of my greatest fears........

Ditto!

Also i am same as you in that, while i crave physical connection, i am terrified of it, i am not used to close contact, we were not a huggy family either. "holding therapy" if their was such a thing (is there?) would be scary but i would def. try it.

This is a common feeling on this board... about touch and hugs, it makes me wonder if we live in such an emotionally/physically barren world that we are literally starving for this human connection??