I'm posting this thread because mood disorders are genetic, and chances are that many of you have sick siblings.

My 14 y/o brother was recently diagnosed with depression, and...I am jealous. Jealous that he is getting help at such a young age, while I had to struggle for 7 years. I also am jealous that someone noticed that all was not right with him, while I suffered in secret; this is a ridiculous reason for envy because my brother is a much more open person than I am. He told our parents that he felt depressed, while I, for the most part, kept my illness as hidden as possible.

I feel really guilty over this, because I know that I should be glad that he is getting help. I was worried about him, and I asked my parents to take him to a therapist several times before. And now that he is in treatment, I can't fully support him because I envy him?!? How messed up is that?

Does anyone have any suggestions for how I can get over this? I have been having hostile thoughts concerning his condition, even to the point of thinking that I am "stronger" for waiting to seek treatment! I feel terrible over this. I want the best for him, and I know that that includes treatment for his mood disorder.

Can anyone relate?