Dear T, sorry for the ranting wall of text email I sent you. I'm angry, not at you, but at lots of things, and cannot be bothered with neat and tidy writing.

I wish I were seeing you sooner than 3 days from now and I wish I'd be able to show as much emotion in session as I did in firing off that message. I hate that I can't do anything without doubting it and taking away any credit I gave myself by saying "I wish I'd done x instead". I hate pretty much everything tonight.